Gillian's Six

Happy Birthday Gillian!!!!

Gillian's Graduation

Gillian has been so happy all week because she was going to graduate and be a 1st grader, even at the Ceremony she was so happy and at the party after, and even at Taylor's Graduation too. Then on the way home she cried and cried and cried. Seriously all the way home...45 min...well I was going kinda fast so less than that but anyway. She doesn't want to be a 1st grader anymore because she doesn't want to miss her teacher Mr. Moses Sausedo. "He's the best teacher in the whole world" and she wants to keep seeing him and I tried to tell her she was going to have fun this summer and try to think about something fun she wanted to do and she said, "call him and write him letters and go to his house and see him and give him a hug and I cant even remember what else but everything was a sad reminder she wasn't going to see him. I even told her she could go visit him next year and she told me she wasn't aloud to go to his class if she wasn't in his class next year. I just could not help. So I stopped trying to help and just let her cry the rest of the way home.

Gillian

About a month or two ago Gillian decided to cute her own bangs. They weren't that bad but then a week later she got gum in her hair and cut it out so she had short hair in the front and long hair in the back. It was too short to cut all the way around so I waited until it was longer so today we got it cut even.

She really likes it!

Gillian's 5th Birthday

She wanted her party strawberry everything!!!
So we had Strawberry cake with Strawberry frosting, shaped like Strawberries.
And Strawberry ice cream.
So here are the Cupcakes

Here is the cake

Getting wet.

Singing Happy Birthday.

Papa and Gilli telling everyone she's 5!!

Opening Presents.

More Presents.

She loved her stuff so much I had a hard time taking pics that weren't blurry.

How do I fix this?

Or do I leave it? She seems happy with it!

Sum up

Ok I am gonna try to recap on the last month since I keep forgetting to blog. I fixed my computer about a week after Jeremiah spilled water on it. I did it myself, and it works great. I back up my stuff about every other day since I had to lose some data when my computer fried.

After I was sick Chase and Jeremiah were sick at the same time as me and Jeremiah was so sad I don't think he has been sick before he was hot and didn't know how to handle it so he just cried and cried. Chase just laid on the couch and was fine the next day like the others. But Jeremiah was sick for a couple days and I was sick for a week and then had a cough after that for at least two more weeks. Gillian got sick two more times throwing up both times and had a fever too. In fact her stomach hurt today and Jason stayed home with her from church. Everyone else went today. Yeah!!! We have missed a lot of church this last month or so since we all passed around being sick.

I have really gotten into scouts. (after being sick I was determined) I finished all my training. Bought the whole uniform and even bought most of the boys uniforms. (their still missing neckerchiefs but have everything else) I have read most of the books and ordered one more and got Jacob on a great start to getting his Bear. I am trying to help Chase catch up. (I wasn't at good of a scout mom before now) He is now a tenderfoot. And working hard to finish some Astrology stuff. Both boys went on a camp thing. Chase went camping and helped make food and went hiking and everything. Jacob went on a day camp which is just a hiking and other things day. He passed off like 3 or 4 things going and I let him take my NEW camera and he got pics too. (he didn't even break or lose it)

oh and on a small note I got my nails done again (been doing them since Christmas) and I had them done in green. ya know for my B-day...

Is it possible to type while laying down?

I guess we will see.

First Savannah was sick. All she had was a fever so I kinda didn't believe her. All I saw was a little girl that had a fever and "couldn't possibly" feel that bad. She laid on the couch for a day and kept "claiming" that she was sick.

Gillian was next but she was throwing up. And saying her tummy hurt. Crying. Throwing up, crying, over and over. All day. Then around 2 she threw up again and all of a sudden she was sleeping. Must be nice to just go to sleep whenever you want. Then around 4 she woke up and had a "I'm gonna throw up everywhere" look. And I thought to myself, Great now I am gonna have to clean up throw up. But she held it until she got to the toilet. And she did throw up a lot. Then after that she was smiling and happy and looked like Gilli again. She was fine after that.

Then Jacob woke up the next morning and I found him on the bathroom floor moaning. He said his tummy hurt and he felt like he was gonna throw up. So I said just stay in here until you do and then maybe you will feel better. Gilli just kept throwing up until she felt better, just keep throwing up Jacob until you feel better. So he stayed home and was laying on the couch all day, sick. But at bed time he came up to me and said, Mom you didn't feed me all day. I am hungry are you gonna feed me? So I told him when you are sick I will not feed you unless you actually tell me you are hungry especially when you have been throwing up. Eat something and go to bed. So he ate and went to bed, and was fine the next day.

But the weird thing is Jason came home from work that same day saying he felt sick and went to bed, sleeping all day but still made me take him to school. (if you miss days it counts off your grade) Then he came home and didn't go to work. Sleeping all the next day too. Then yesterday I woke up and he was still sick. And I felt really tired for some reason. And achy. So I got the 3 kids off to school. And fed the 2 little ones, and put a movie on. Told then mommy didn't feel very good so she was just gonna lay down for an hour or so and then we could play. I woke up and heard the kids talking so I went down stairs and saw the 3 big kids were home. So I looked at the clock and it was almost 4pm. I had slept all day and didn't even realize it. I felt awful but I didn't know I was that bad. I asked the kids where Daddy was and no one knew so I called him and he was at the Urgent care cuz he wasn't getting better after 3 days. They told him he had an upper respiratory infection. So after he came home he went back to bed and slept waking up later telling me that "I" need to go get his prescription for him since he was too sick to "get back up". So even though I felt like crap and knew I was sicker or at least the same. I got bundled up (two shirts, sweat pants and a jacket) and went to the car to drive "all the way" to Fry's. Two whole miles seemed like forever. So as I got in the car that had been sitting in the sun all day. I realized I felt so much better sitting in there with all the windows up and three layers of clothes on. So I sat in there for a "couple" minutes. (I don't actually know how long it was and I think I fell asleep for a while. Seriously it felt SO good!) Then I drove to Fry's (I think I went 30 the whole time? I don't actually remember) Then walking to the pharmacy was so hard I think I looked like a grandma that has a bad back and legs and everything else. I finally got to the counter and asked for his meds. There was no one there and it still seemed like forever. But I got them and walked...very slowly... back to the car. All the while thinking, Why in the world do they keep Fry's SO DANG COLD??? Then getting back in the car. I realized how good it felt again and sat there for while, again. Honestly it felt SO GOOD! I somehow got home. I don't really remember driving. Threw his meds at him and went back to bed. I took my temp and it was only 102... you know not too bad...ya right. So then Jason comes downstairs and he's dressed for school! yes I said dressed for school! I had to go get his meds but he could go to school! I was so mad that I ...started falling asleep...I guess I was more sick than I cared to be mad. Oh well. Then he asks me to read the instructions cuz he can't. So what do I do? I sit up and read the whole front and back instructions. Typed in like 6 font. And cant find any dosage instructions. So I tell him either call or just take one and be done. I don't care anymore. So he says just give me one, so I pull the pills out and there on the back is how to take them...very frustrated now. Anyway. He left for school and I fell asleep on the couch. (Its better then in my bed upstairs, right?) The kids woke me up at hmm I don't even know what time it was but it was dark out. That cant be good. They all claimed they were hungry. Well let me think when was the last time I fed you? hmm I haven't ate anything all day so....yesterday? I really don't remember right now. So I asked Chase to just make ramen for everyone. He looked at me like I asked him to cure cancer or do brain surgery! So I tried to walk him through it as best I could from the couch and being halfway asleep. I don't remember how it turned out I think I was sleeping again?? Then Chase woke me up to tell me it was bedtime so I told the kids to go to bed. And turn off all the lights on there way. Hoping that after all this time they could do that by themselves. Nope. They were fighting and yelling and so I tried to yell over them to get them to stop and made my head hurt so bad, that I started crying and all my kids just looked at me like What Did We Do??? Then I saw them all go to bed. (NTS: cry if you want your kids to do something) Then I woke up "later" hungry so I tried to walk to the kitchen, do you know how hard this is when you haven't walked for half the day? Made the chicken noodle soup I bought the day before for Jason. ha ha And had to SIT UP while eating it, can you believe I had to sit up after walking all the way to the kitchen?!? UG! Then after I ate I felt a little better and realized that I stunk really bad! Maybe it was the three layers of clothes and comforter I was bundled in all day??? So I walked upstairs....slowly....and took my clothes off....slowly....and started to take a shower then Jeremiah came in and said, "Me ower?" so being the nice...stupid mommy, I say yes. So he takes his diaper off and starts to come in and then says, "no ower, mommy" and ran off. Then Gilli came in crying and said she wants to shower with me and you think I would have learned the first time, but I didn't. So I say yes again. And she cried the whole time either about how the water felt or the soap in her eyes, it wasn't she just cried that it was. Then I made her get out and she just cried that her towel wasn't keeping her warm. Oh my I think I have had all I can handle of the crying! Then Jason walks in and asks Gilli if she wants help. (if Jason is home then its midnight, oops) so he help the kids get back into bed while I finished showering. And we all went to bed. I thought that since I felt a little better last night that I would feel better this morning but I feel worse again. I have blown my nose a gazillion times and and I have coughed so many times that my lower abdomen hurts before I even start to cough again. And even while being in the fetal position.

So if you want to come over and clean my house and take care of my kids and have a chance of getting sick, then come over, please.

PS this only took me 2 hours to type and I stopped a couple times cuz I was too tired to type. It is actually 10:45 now.

Water and Computer don't mix!

I had an ear ache earlier and Gilli wanted to play on the computer so I said you play and I will lay on the couch for a while. So I lay there for a couple min and then I hear OH NO!!! Jeremiah spilled water all over my tower! I tried to clean it up but it was already inside the front and the computer was frozen. So I turned it off, the wrong way. And dried it out and let it sit for a couple hours and tried to turn it on and nope it still doesn't work it says it doesn't even find a drive in my computer now! I have to reboot the whole thing AGAIN!!! UGH I hate computers sometimes!!! So no computer for me unless I go to the library. Suck for me big time!!!

Family Update

Chase Jacob and Savannah are doing well in school. Chase is in 6th grade. Jacob is in 3rd grade and Savannah is in 2nd.

Chase has to walk to school while Jacob and Savannah ride the bus. This school doesn't let 5th or 6th ride the bus. Chase thinks he is going to make a magic______??? its a new thing every week once it was a wand then it was a car then a house. I never know what he thinks he is gonna creates when he grows up. lol

Savannah has a hard time wanting to go to school in the mornings but after I make her go she is fine and comes home excited. Other than that she is doing great. Most of the time. She likes to start fights with Chase and egg him on to hit her so he gets in trouble and if I tell her to go to time out because I know that she started it she likes to say I don't love her. lol She's such a drama queen.

Jacob is having a hard time with soccer this year he moved up a level and the field is twice as big and there are more rules and He isn't on a team with any of his friends so he is starting completely over. He gets really tired and has a hard time keeping up with the ball. I like it and I don't. I like that he has to work harder to get what he wants so he learns that not everything comes easy. But I don't like that he has to learns it all at once.

Gillian is doing very well with her letters and numbers. She can count to 20. I asked her to count higher but she told me know. lol She likes to tell me what she "cant" do. And even knows what all the letters look like. She can even "read" words. That she has seen before. I think she is guessing but you know what I mean. She is so loud and energetic. She is also jealous, possessive, and persistent. She has such bad mood swings I cant handle it most of the time. I get so frustrated that I have to either walk away or let Jason handle it. She will play with Jeremiah all day and then all of a sudden she is in a fight to death battle over one toy that she just has to have. She can pretend all day that she is a puppy or a ..... and I mean all day I try to go to the store and she tells me (she happens to be a talking dog) she cant go to the store because dogs aren't aloud or because dogs cant wear shoes. or whatever her reason is. lol So I convince her to dress and put shoes on to go to the store and when we get there she barks at all the shoppers while I shop.

Jeremiah says "I love you too" and "Thank you" He also says "Me" if I ask who spilled or who made a mess. He likes to take a nap at 10am and if he can't he likes to scream/cry until he finally does. He screamed all the way to Jacob's soccer game. (40 min drive) Basically the whole soccer game (1 hour) And most of the way home until he fell asleep. Then I had to stop at the store and he woke up and cried the rest of the way home and then at home until about an hour later he finally fell asleep. He can go for hours. But he is the cutest baby I know. He likes to climb on things like the couch and then jump off to the floor and say "uh!" like it took a lot of work. He likes to say please to get stuff likes treats but when you say no he cries and pulls on you until he falls down and keeps crying. He says ya and no to everything. He likes to say "stop" if you do something he doesn't like and then when I say "you stop" He says it back only it sounds like "OOO stp."

Jason is liking the new drive to work since its only 5 min. I am liking the new house since I can section things off better to clean. Upstairs and downstairs and kitchen and laundry are easier now. Since they are farther away from each other so I am less likely to move from room to room on accident (My mind likes to wander when I clean and if I pick up a kids toy and put it away I used to start cleaning their room) We are all getting used to the new neighborhood and the noises and sounds that go with it. The neighbor in front of us has a yard sale/fry bread sale every weekend. The neighbor next to her washes their dogs every night and it smells like wet dog when you go outside, well only if it doesn't cover up the manure smell. There are at least 5 dairy farms just south of us. Well anyway that is life for us right now.

Gillian dancing

I can't sleep

Well actually Gilli is keeping me up she screams and cries all night long. For no reason that I cant figure out and she just tells me she doesn't know why shes crying. She has had a blessing and I even prayed with her tonight to see if we could figure something out. But to no avail she just screams and cries every couple of minutes. the longest she has gone was about 30 min. I am hoping she can stop. Without me figuring out what is wrong and it wont matter, but this is something she does at least once a week or more. Jason normally doesn't even notice, and just sleeps right through. But I cant sleep through it and I just try to tell her to calm down and stop or just ignore her when comforting doesn't work. Nothing seems to work anyway. Whether I get up with her or not doesn't make her stop. Most of the time she doesn't even seem to be awake. Sometimes I want to scream and cry after she starts. Because I know it will just keep going all night long. So tonight I decided to play on the web instead of crying and screaming. But I am really tired and just want to sleep. S l e e p . . . I w a n t s l e e p . . . . s o b a d l y . . .

Thursday continues to Friday morning

So I got to sleep around midnight and Gilli started crying later and I just told her SHH and tried to go back to sleep WITHOUT looking at the time since it makes me more tired if I do. So then I hear her whining and walking toward my room so I again say SHH and try to ignore her but then as she gets closer to my room I can smell her. Yes I could smell her poopiness before she got to my room so I, in denial, try to ignore her and she comes in and cries "I'm POOOOOPPPYYY" so I make myself wake up to change her but still try to stay half asleep so I can fall asleep easy later. But when I get to the living room and turn on the light I see poop everywhere she was leaking out of her diaper and out her pants and down her leg and on her blanket (she fell asleep on the living room couch) And on the couch (good thing I still have Monique's carpet cleaner) So I spent some time cleaning her off and the couch off and the blanket off and put everything in a basket by the back door to wash in the morning and go back to bed only to wake up late and have to rush to get the kids ready, who by the way just want to fight this morning. So I finally get them off and Gillian is poopy again that is 6 times yesterday once last night and already once this morning. Gilli must have a bug or something because this is rediculous.

Warning-this post may ramble and not make much sense

Yesterday I was so tired when I got up that I don't remember getting the kids ready for school. (Jeremiah is still not sleeping well-teething) I do remember taking Gillian's diaper off to sit on the potty (still trying to potty train) and then while she sat I was going to lay on the couch for a "minute" when I opened my eyes the clock said 11:30 (the kids go to the bus at 8) So I tried to get up and do something ....anything and was so tired and even a little sick that I just didn't want to do anything I did forget I told Marie I would make a dinner for the missionaries and drop it off. and Jason wanted me to go get Jeremiahs soc since I lost his already whatever. So I made a list of all the things I needed to do. Which included soc sec office, target for storage container, library or they charge me for the book on hold, dollar store for dish soap since my dishwasher still doesn't work. (did I blog about that?) Fry's for some groceries, and something else I new I was forgetting but couldn't remember. So I made myself get up and got Gilli dressed and then remembered Jeremiah wasn't dressed either. ok I guess I have to get him dressed. So we finally leave and go to Mesa to the Soc sec office and they tell me they don't do cards there only benefits. I have to go to Downtown Phx to get a card OK whatever waste of my time. So I hit Target on the way and the library and dollar store and then drive all the way to 7th ave and the 17 and wait an hour and they tell my they don't give out cards just by birth cert? what am I supposed to have hes 5 months? she says I have to get an ID card from DMV or Passport or some odd thing like that. Do people actually do that? Yes she says you are eligible to get an ID card as early as 1 day. So what if your eligible do people actually do that? So I leave and feel very irritated. I wasted and hour and a half of my day and I didn't even get it. So I got to Fry's and magically remember the missionaries and try to hurry (which just slows you down in the end, why I don't understand) Get home at 4:40 and my computer doesn't work so I have to actually call Marie and confess I forgot and just got home and their dinner will be ready in 30 min but I am supposed to be at Chases class meeting his teacher in 20 min so she very sweetly offers to pick up the meal and take it to them for me. Yah! So I get my dinner started and try to get ready but it doesn't seem to work. So Jason offers to finish dinner Yah! (homemade pizza, I thought sounded like a good idea before I actually started making it) So I leave and got to meet Chases teacher (his other teacher had a baby and is taking the rest of the year off) Jason calls me and says call Marie and tell her the food is done (he cant find numbers on the phone even though I have told him 100 times) So I call her and just start talking and then she says who is this oh ya by the way Hi I'm Bridget... and I just told you to come to my home and pick them up and you have no idea who I am that's great sorry Marie. So I got home and helped eat yummy pizza not worth the effort but still yummy (if I do homemade pizza again I will just buy French bread from Fry's and cover in toppings and cook its just as good and 90% less hassle) Then I look at my kitchen and (remember how all I think about is cleaning?) so even though I feel like crap and am extremely tired guess what I do (this is rhetorical of coarse) I do dishes! All an hours worth and most of them wouldn't come clean even after soaking for a minute. So I ate chocolate while I waited for the dishes to set. Oh ya did I mention Jeremiah was crying the whole time I did dishes. And even Jason holding him didn't work so I even tried to put him in the sling and slide to the back (I did this the other day while I raked it worked well) So about 9pm I was done doing dishes and more tired than ever and still wondering why I had to do dishes right then but I kept thinking if I didn't they would just build up even more. So then I sit down and relax and Jason went to bed about 9:40 (he always goes to bed in the middle of a show?!?) So decide I need some calm down time before going to bed (I know this is so stupid since I was so tired but I felt I deserved it) So then I look at the clock and its 12am oops so much for getting sleep so I go lay down and cant sleep anyway so I lay there until about 1am and the Jeremiah starts crying I look at the clock and its 2 so I feed him and cant get back to sleep so I just lay there and wait. Then I wake up and its 5 so I got a little sleep. And then at 7 I didn't want to get up at all. So I made myself get up and deal with stuff. Then remembered I planned a crock pot dinner (to make it easy on me, right? like I wanted to do stuff bright and early in the morning) So then I keep telling myself if I get the stupid potatoes cut up and thrown in I can lay down as a reward then Jason calls and tells me to pay all the bills. Great now I have to spent time doing stuff again. No nap for me. I may however sleep while I type....

2008 in review

This year has been better than the last. (but then again last year really sucked so it wasn't hard to top)
Jacob turned 6 and started 1st grade this year. His teacher says he is doing great at everything and excels in most subjects especially reading. Jacob played soccer this year for the very first time. He excels at this too...if only he wouldn't hog the ball and block his own players, but for his first time playing ever I think he did great.

Chase turned 9 and has been doing scouting for a while. He really gets into it. He still loves to draw and does so every chance he gets. On every paper he can find. He acts goofy every chance he gets to just the other day I saw him doing a weird dance for Jeremiah and when I asked what he was doing he just said "dancing".

Gillian turned 2 and is still in nursery she loves it and yes they did start teaching a lesson and reading books and other stuff. she can pretty much repeat everything you say and tells me things like " I go get my baby you stay here. I be right back." I love it so much. She however does get Savannah's attitude sometimes, and tells me "no I don't want to, I hate you." She hasn't been potty trained but I am working on this slowly I just get so frustrated when I sit with her for 15 minutes and NOTHING! Then I get her off the potty and she pees, but we will keep working slowly She cant stay in diapers forever, right.

Jeremiah was born in September and is growing fast. He can already roll over from front to back. Hold himself up in the Bumbo seat. And do the superman on his tummy. He is cooing like crazy, and whacking everything with his arms. He still nurses every two hours but sometimes gets a 4 hour nap in at 7pm.

Savannah turned 5 and started kindergarten, and loves it. Her teacher says she does great in class and everyone likes her. She sounds out every letter in a word to try to figure it out. I love it. She is still so small that the school clothes that they sell didn't fit her so she had all dresses for school. She did get her first thing of lice from school, and it took two weeks to get rid of it all. She does get her moms attitude sometimes and wont do anything for me but I guess I have to expect that from a 5 year old

Jason still has the same great job. Even through the cut backs. We were lucky. I has even managed to keep getting 40 hours a week even with the economy being slow. Jason turned 36 this year, and I pick on him for being so old all the time. :) Jason works hard to keep us with all the things that a growing family needs. We may not get everything that we want but who does?

I have been doing fine this year. I again forgot about my goals I set last year but this isn't something new. I did learn some new crafting things. I learned some new cooking skills too. I also read some books too so I did accomplish some things I wanted to do. Just not the real important stuff. (Of course if I go off of Helena's comment I pretty much don't need goals for this year since I can cross them off with her thinking :) thank Helena) Also I do have to say that since I started blogging more I feel good about keeping up with all this family stuff that should be journaled(sp). I turned 27 and didn't really notice since its not really a big deal. I always thought birthdays would be a big deal but the last 2 years haven't really mattered. I did accomplish one big goal that I didn't tell anyone which was getting my recommend current again so I do feel great about that. I guess I need to be a lot less worrisome this year I think my problem is I want to have everything done and perfect Right Now and if it isn't I get frustrated and stress, but anyway this is what I sum up our year as.

Makes me cry

I wasn't going to post this because it makes me cry every time I see it or think about it. But Saturday I planned on cleaning Savannah's room (I left the whole morning open for this) So Savannah was taking things to the garbage and recycle and give away buckets all morning then I hear Gilli crying so I get up from the floor (because that's the only way to clean her room) I see Chase holding hair and he has his "amazed" look on his face I ask what happened and Savannah says (rather meanly) SHE PULLED MY HAIR! So I assume that Gilli pulled her hair out ....but then why is SHE the one crying so I ask what happened next she says (more mean than before) SO I PULLED HER HAIR! SO I look at Gilli and she literally has a bald spot in the back of her head! I BIG BALD spot I might add. Savannah was so mad that Gilli tugged on her hair that she pulled so hard that she ripped out a huge spot of hair. And every time I brush or see the spot I cry all over again....I was going to take a picture but I really don't want to remember this that well.

Gillian all by herself

This is what my little 2 year old looked like when I left for an hour.This is what she looked like when I got back.

She was so proud of herself as you can tell. Even though she pretty much ruined every last thing of makeup I own.
She even said cheese when I took her picture.

My kids!

Gilli's favorite person!

This scares me more than anything else. Gilli takes him off the couch, out of his bed, out of the car seat wherever she wants. And then RUNS (not walks) to me wherever I am- bedroom, bathroom, doing dishes, whatever- she doesn't care. And as you can tell He Really Loves It!!

Sleeping?

Gillian's new game with me is to act like she's asleep when I get her out of the car. So we get home and I go to get her and she pretends to be asleep (still smiling by the way) SO I go to pick her up and she whispers "me sleep *giggle*" So I pick her up and she flops down on my shoulder still pretending. Its just so funny. Especially since she cant stop smiling the whole time.

More of Gilli's spare time

I know I should probably take more pics of my other kids but Gilli is just so funny...

box fun
daddy's gloves

what happens when I forget shes watching tv while I nest...
ok here are my other kids so I dont feel so bad.
I even have a cousin in this one....