Is it bad that I like to sleep on the couch?

Is it really bad that I would rather sleep on the couch? Lets see if I explain it it makes more sense. Jason snores and now so does Jeremiah... There are crickets in my room somewhere... My room is the warmest room in the house... Jeremiah feeds more if he can smell me I fed him 3 times last night and if I had slept in the room I would have fed hi 5 times...
so is it bad that I don't even consider sleeping in my room on most nights, and just grab a pillow and turn off the tv and go to sleep?

I can't sleep

Well actually Gilli is keeping me up she screams and cries all night long. For no reason that I cant figure out and she just tells me she doesn't know why shes crying. She has had a blessing and I even prayed with her tonight to see if we could figure something out. But to no avail she just screams and cries every couple of minutes. the longest she has gone was about 30 min. I am hoping she can stop. Without me figuring out what is wrong and it wont matter, but this is something she does at least once a week or more. Jason normally doesn't even notice, and just sleeps right through. But I cant sleep through it and I just try to tell her to calm down and stop or just ignore her when comforting doesn't work. Nothing seems to work anyway. Whether I get up with her or not doesn't make her stop. Most of the time she doesn't even seem to be awake. Sometimes I want to scream and cry after she starts. Because I know it will just keep going all night long. So tonight I decided to play on the web instead of crying and screaming. But I am really tired and just want to sleep. S l e e p . . . I w a n t s l e e p . . . . s o b a d l y . . .

Thursday continues to Friday morning

So I got to sleep around midnight and Gilli started crying later and I just told her SHH and tried to go back to sleep WITHOUT looking at the time since it makes me more tired if I do. So then I hear her whining and walking toward my room so I again say SHH and try to ignore her but then as she gets closer to my room I can smell her. Yes I could smell her poopiness before she got to my room so I, in denial, try to ignore her and she comes in and cries "I'm POOOOOPPPYYY" so I make myself wake up to change her but still try to stay half asleep so I can fall asleep easy later. But when I get to the living room and turn on the light I see poop everywhere she was leaking out of her diaper and out her pants and down her leg and on her blanket (she fell asleep on the living room couch) And on the couch (good thing I still have Monique's carpet cleaner) So I spent some time cleaning her off and the couch off and the blanket off and put everything in a basket by the back door to wash in the morning and go back to bed only to wake up late and have to rush to get the kids ready, who by the way just want to fight this morning. So I finally get them off and Gillian is poopy again that is 6 times yesterday once last night and already once this morning. Gilli must have a bug or something because this is rediculous.

Warning-this post may ramble and not make much sense

Yesterday I was so tired when I got up that I don't remember getting the kids ready for school. (Jeremiah is still not sleeping well-teething) I do remember taking Gillian's diaper off to sit on the potty (still trying to potty train) and then while she sat I was going to lay on the couch for a "minute" when I opened my eyes the clock said 11:30 (the kids go to the bus at 8) So I tried to get up and do something ....anything and was so tired and even a little sick that I just didn't want to do anything I did forget I told Marie I would make a dinner for the missionaries and drop it off. and Jason wanted me to go get Jeremiahs soc since I lost his already whatever. So I made a list of all the things I needed to do. Which included soc sec office, target for storage container, library or they charge me for the book on hold, dollar store for dish soap since my dishwasher still doesn't work. (did I blog about that?) Fry's for some groceries, and something else I new I was forgetting but couldn't remember. So I made myself get up and got Gilli dressed and then remembered Jeremiah wasn't dressed either. ok I guess I have to get him dressed. So we finally leave and go to Mesa to the Soc sec office and they tell me they don't do cards there only benefits. I have to go to Downtown Phx to get a card OK whatever waste of my time. So I hit Target on the way and the library and dollar store and then drive all the way to 7th ave and the 17 and wait an hour and they tell my they don't give out cards just by birth cert? what am I supposed to have hes 5 months? she says I have to get an ID card from DMV or Passport or some odd thing like that. Do people actually do that? Yes she says you are eligible to get an ID card as early as 1 day. So what if your eligible do people actually do that? So I leave and feel very irritated. I wasted and hour and a half of my day and I didn't even get it. So I got to Fry's and magically remember the missionaries and try to hurry (which just slows you down in the end, why I don't understand) Get home at 4:40 and my computer doesn't work so I have to actually call Marie and confess I forgot and just got home and their dinner will be ready in 30 min but I am supposed to be at Chases class meeting his teacher in 20 min so she very sweetly offers to pick up the meal and take it to them for me. Yah! So I get my dinner started and try to get ready but it doesn't seem to work. So Jason offers to finish dinner Yah! (homemade pizza, I thought sounded like a good idea before I actually started making it) So I leave and got to meet Chases teacher (his other teacher had a baby and is taking the rest of the year off) Jason calls me and says call Marie and tell her the food is done (he cant find numbers on the phone even though I have told him 100 times) So I call her and just start talking and then she says who is this oh ya by the way Hi I'm Bridget... and I just told you to come to my home and pick them up and you have no idea who I am that's great sorry Marie. So I got home and helped eat yummy pizza not worth the effort but still yummy (if I do homemade pizza again I will just buy French bread from Fry's and cover in toppings and cook its just as good and 90% less hassle) Then I look at my kitchen and (remember how all I think about is cleaning?) so even though I feel like crap and am extremely tired guess what I do (this is rhetorical of coarse) I do dishes! All an hours worth and most of them wouldn't come clean even after soaking for a minute. So I ate chocolate while I waited for the dishes to set. Oh ya did I mention Jeremiah was crying the whole time I did dishes. And even Jason holding him didn't work so I even tried to put him in the sling and slide to the back (I did this the other day while I raked it worked well) So about 9pm I was done doing dishes and more tired than ever and still wondering why I had to do dishes right then but I kept thinking if I didn't they would just build up even more. So then I sit down and relax and Jason went to bed about 9:40 (he always goes to bed in the middle of a show?!?) So decide I need some calm down time before going to bed (I know this is so stupid since I was so tired but I felt I deserved it) So then I look at the clock and its 12am oops so much for getting sleep so I go lay down and cant sleep anyway so I lay there until about 1am and the Jeremiah starts crying I look at the clock and its 2 so I feed him and cant get back to sleep so I just lay there and wait. Then I wake up and its 5 so I got a little sleep. And then at 7 I didn't want to get up at all. So I made myself get up and deal with stuff. Then remembered I planned a crock pot dinner (to make it easy on me, right? like I wanted to do stuff bright and early in the morning) So then I keep telling myself if I get the stupid potatoes cut up and thrown in I can lay down as a reward then Jason calls and tells me to pay all the bills. Great now I have to spent time doing stuff again. No nap for me. I may however sleep while I type....

Sleep?

I heard Chase coloring on a paper this morning at 5am so I got up and told him to go to bed. I then heard Gilli walking across my carpeted bedroom at 6:30 and woke up again. Jason on the other hand didn't hear the alarm go off at 11:30 last night and I was feeding Jeremiah so I couldn't turn it off (it wasn't "going off" it was beeping to let us know its batteries are dying, but that's not the point.) I even nudged him and still nothing I asked him about it this morning and he claims that if it were "really" something he would have woken up. I really don't believe him though.

Why?

Why do I get so lazy during the day but right around 9 o'clock pm. I get energized and could stay up for hours cleaning? I don't like to wake up at all in the morning. I hate to get up early. But From 4 pm until bed I could clean organize and do anything else for a long time. I really don't understand why.