Warning-this post may ramble and not make much sense

Yesterday I was so tired when I got up that I don't remember getting the kids ready for school. (Jeremiah is still not sleeping well-teething) I do remember taking Gillian's diaper off to sit on the potty (still trying to potty train) and then while she sat I was going to lay on the couch for a "minute" when I opened my eyes the clock said 11:30 (the kids go to the bus at 8) So I tried to get up and do something ....anything and was so tired and even a little sick that I just didn't want to do anything I did forget I told Marie I would make a dinner for the missionaries and drop it off. and Jason wanted me to go get Jeremiahs soc since I lost his already whatever. So I made a list of all the things I needed to do. Which included soc sec office, target for storage container, library or they charge me for the book on hold, dollar store for dish soap since my dishwasher still doesn't work. (did I blog about that?) Fry's for some groceries, and something else I new I was forgetting but couldn't remember. So I made myself get up and got Gilli dressed and then remembered Jeremiah wasn't dressed either. ok I guess I have to get him dressed. So we finally leave and go to Mesa to the Soc sec office and they tell me they don't do cards there only benefits. I have to go to Downtown Phx to get a card OK whatever waste of my time. So I hit Target on the way and the library and dollar store and then drive all the way to 7th ave and the 17 and wait an hour and they tell my they don't give out cards just by birth cert? what am I supposed to have hes 5 months? she says I have to get an ID card from DMV or Passport or some odd thing like that. Do people actually do that? Yes she says you are eligible to get an ID card as early as 1 day. So what if your eligible do people actually do that? So I leave and feel very irritated. I wasted and hour and a half of my day and I didn't even get it. So I got to Fry's and magically remember the missionaries and try to hurry (which just slows you down in the end, why I don't understand) Get home at 4:40 and my computer doesn't work so I have to actually call Marie and confess I forgot and just got home and their dinner will be ready in 30 min but I am supposed to be at Chases class meeting his teacher in 20 min so she very sweetly offers to pick up the meal and take it to them for me. Yah! So I get my dinner started and try to get ready but it doesn't seem to work. So Jason offers to finish dinner Yah! (homemade pizza, I thought sounded like a good idea before I actually started making it) So I leave and got to meet Chases teacher (his other teacher had a baby and is taking the rest of the year off) Jason calls me and says call Marie and tell her the food is done (he cant find numbers on the phone even though I have told him 100 times) So I call her and just start talking and then she says who is this oh ya by the way Hi I'm Bridget... and I just told you to come to my home and pick them up and you have no idea who I am that's great sorry Marie. So I got home and helped eat yummy pizza not worth the effort but still yummy (if I do homemade pizza again I will just buy French bread from Fry's and cover in toppings and cook its just as good and 90% less hassle) Then I look at my kitchen and (remember how all I think about is cleaning?) so even though I feel like crap and am extremely tired guess what I do (this is rhetorical of coarse) I do dishes! All an hours worth and most of them wouldn't come clean even after soaking for a minute. So I ate chocolate while I waited for the dishes to set. Oh ya did I mention Jeremiah was crying the whole time I did dishes. And even Jason holding him didn't work so I even tried to put him in the sling and slide to the back (I did this the other day while I raked it worked well) So about 9pm I was done doing dishes and more tired than ever and still wondering why I had to do dishes right then but I kept thinking if I didn't they would just build up even more. So then I sit down and relax and Jason went to bed about 9:40 (he always goes to bed in the middle of a show?!?) So decide I need some calm down time before going to bed (I know this is so stupid since I was so tired but I felt I deserved it) So then I look at the clock and its 12am oops so much for getting sleep so I go lay down and cant sleep anyway so I lay there until about 1am and the Jeremiah starts crying I look at the clock and its 2 so I feed him and cant get back to sleep so I just lay there and wait. Then I wake up and its 5 so I got a little sleep. And then at 7 I didn't want to get up at all. So I made myself get up and deal with stuff. Then remembered I planned a crock pot dinner (to make it easy on me, right? like I wanted to do stuff bright and early in the morning) So then I keep telling myself if I get the stupid potatoes cut up and thrown in I can lay down as a reward then Jason calls and tells me to pay all the bills. Great now I have to spent time doing stuff again. No nap for me. I may however sleep while I type....

So Frustrating

I was doing stuff yesterday and heard Gilli in my bathroom so I freaked out and assumed the worst. But when I got there she looked at me with her guilty look and then said
"Don't look at my poop" (there wasn't poop anywhere) so I ask
"Did you poop?"
"Yes"
She was next to the toilet and pooped in her diaper! UGGG

Then today I put a clean diaper on her and she comes in my room 5 minutes later and throws it at me. She already peed in it so I wait a couple minutes and put her on the potty, Jeremiah starts crying so I go to my room to get him when I get back she is standing on the lid of the potty and peed on the floor! So this time she still could have and still didn't. AAAAAHHHHH!!!!