Random thoughts

What does it say about me that I am willing to play hip hop and whatever else in my car until I have someone else's kids in there and then I switch it to Country or oldies or something "safe"??? I mean, I do change it when a "bad" song comes on. But what does that mean? Does it mean I am willing to corrupt my kids but not others? Am I a bad mom?

Also on my mind is that I haven't cleaned my house in weeks. I mean I do dishes once a day and get the kids to do their chores and maybe wash school clothes, cuz, well they have to have clean school clothes, but other than that I haven't really done much else. Until again, I have other kids over and then I stop being on the computer and clean the kitchen and the table and counters and the living room and the floors and do laundry and put it away and putting it away is a big deal. Cuz well I never put it away and it just sits on the "laundry table" (Jason hates it when I call it that ha ha) until the kids use it or my mom comes and puts it away. Which is normally once a week. ha ha But tonight I cleaned all night and didn't even think twice about it. I just kept going. Hung my clothes up, vacuumed every room downstairs and under the couch, I even put all the movies away and found cases for ones that weren't put away. I mean really I need other people here to get stuff done? Why? Am I too lazy to do it normally? why cant I get it done normally? Or why can't Make myself do it normally? I just don't get it. Oh well I guess I will try to stop dwelling on it and think about something else.